It’s three days till the end of the year. Can I get a whoop whoop? 🎊 🎊 🎊
2018 was a year of learning and growing for me. Learning that you have absolute control over your emotions, learning that it is important to clearly state and stick to the terms and conditions of every agreement, learning that it is totally okay to focus on your physical and mental health even though this might involve cutting people off.
Another very important thing I learnt in 2018 was the need to reflect on the old so as to make room to improve the new. It helps to learn from your mistakes so that you can avoid repeating them.
So, I thought I’d come here and share how 2018 went for me in categories, and the improvements I’ll be making in 2019.
This is one category where I had to be very honest with myself in 2018. I don’t think it’s any surprise that most of my money goes into purchasing food.
A sister has to eat, plus the food in school is pretty pricey for the amount being served 🤷♀
Hopefully, we’re shown more love in the coming year.
To better manage my finances next year, I’ll be
1. Setting up automated savings (come through piggybank).
I used to think that automated savings only made sense if large amounts of money were being put aside. Well, now I know better.
2. Exploring more food options.
Since we’re fit-famming this 2019, moi-moi and fish honestly isn’t a bad idea.
The mind-blowing thing is that foods that are good for you are way less expensive than fried rice and beef (which tastes bland btw).
So, I’ll be incorporating more fruits and vegetables and healthier (cheaper) food options into my diet.
3. Making and sticking to my budgets
Of my own power I can do nothing. Jesus has to step into this budget matter 😒😒😒
This year, I learnt that being with a ‘spirit-filled’ guy isn’t enough to make you happy. They’re so many other things to put into consideration.
Does he make snide comments about your weight? Does he want to know your every step and location? Does he think that your reasons for wanting peace of mind make no sense to him, hence you’re just being selfish?
So many questions…
I an human and it is only normal for me to want someone to walk through life with. But when you’re drained emotionally, you cannot kill yourself.
To save myself the headaches and time, I wrote down what I wanted whoever I’m with to have.
This isn’t just a list of ‘He must have or he must be’s. It’s realistic expectations. It’s things that I am working towards as well.
Call it having high standards, but I’m way too old to be settling for people who don’t match up to what I expect.
I’m not going into 2019 desperate for a partner, but I’m also not going to be canceling people up and down.
We’ll see how it goes ❣️
Remember how I kept shouting that it is very unwise to go for a Masters degree if you do not absolutely want to here?
Well, now my voice is even louder and I’m shouting harder.
I cannot count how many times I’ve asked myself if it was a smart decision leaving my job to start my Masters degree. Thoughts like this only come when I let myself sink into that deep, dark place of procrastination and self-pity. Thankfully, I’m able to pull myself out and get back to work.
I make it a habit to constantly remind myself of where I am aiming for and how a second degree is necessary for me to get there.
I’ll be graduating in June next year and the four walls of a school won’t be seeing me anytime soon after that.
My head needs to rest 🤕🤕
I’ve come a very long way from that girl who used to shut people out at the slightest provocation.
This year, I let people break down the walls I had built up, I let people into my space and guess what…
I don’t regret it at all
I’ve learnt forgiveness, sacrifice, sharing and so many other things from my friends and I’m grateful for that.
In 2019, I intend opening myself up more. Smiling more often and being nicer to random people.
Hopefully, less people think I’m snobbish when they meet me 🤷♀
I’m not where I was at the beginning of the year, but I’m still working towards growing and improving.
I understand that you can never really get to a place where you say that you’re done growing. It’s a continuous process that takes time and work.
Here’s to more growth in 2019 🥂
2018 was a great year for me, but one cannot wallow in the past forever.
Although it may seem like there’s a lot of time for slacking till the new year arrives, I choose to buckle up and begin to work towards my goals from now.
Out with the old and in with the new.
With love and light,